ANNE HAIGIS
homestory
VÖ:2003

Now post-natal depressions starts the day that you were born
The product of an accidental meeting on a train
A slap to start you crying, the milk to make you stop
You suck until you’re satisfied and choke on erery drop

You don’t want to tremble
You don’t want to shake
But you must
Cause water tasted like ashes
And apples tastes like dust
And some days you wake and the phone won’t ring
The postman’s died, the birds don’t sing
The mercury’s falling so fast, the flowers all freeze
It’s a shock that you have to go back to school
To learn how to walk and crawl
And even to breathe

They drag you from a woman, as bright as a new pin
To spend a troubled lifetime, tryin’ hard to crawl back in
And every day your mirror shows the blemish of your soul
But no one seems to notice that there’s no one in control
And you don’t want to tremble
You don’t want to shake
But you must
Your knees turn to water
Your bones begin to rust

And some days you wake and the phone won’t ring
The postman’s died, the birds don’t sing
The mercury’s falling so fast, the flowers all freeze
It’s a shock that you have to go back to school
To learn how to walk and crawl
And even to breathe

Days are changing colours
The sun is throwing needles on my closed window pane
The shades of leaving summer
Are dancing on a sidewalk it’s getting colder while I try
To find a way to get this right
What’s in my weary head
Hey dad the day will come when we will laugh again
You’re not the only one who tries to understand

And the rain falls from the autumn sky
And the last few days won’t leave my mind
Oh I wish I’d never seen this face
Hey mama don’t you cry again
I still do what I can and see
How the world comes down on me
With no words spoken honestly

Too much I cannot handle
But if not me who’s there to help me through
Maybe it makes me stronger
If there’s no one who tells me what to do
And suddenly there’s nothing like it ought to be
Who belongs to me
And I hope the time will come you talk to me my friend
I’m not the only one who tries to understand

And the rain falls from the autumn sky
And the last few days won’t leave my mind
Oh I wish I’d never seen this face
Hey mama don’t you cry again
I still do what I can and see
How the world comes down on me
With no words spoken honestly

Just another lucky day
Coming out with the morning sun
I’m on the run to find the things I’m looking for
The face in the mirror
Does look like me
This is the time I try to break free
So many miles that I left behind but you’re still on my mind

Sometimes I try
To break down every wall
Sometimes I’m lost with myself
Waiting for some one to keep me warm
You’re on my mind everywhere I go
How can I tell you what I feel for you

I feel my memories are floating back
Falling like rain
I can’t control my feet
They’re doing steps on the door, I should runto you
But my feelings are to strong to hold back
Where are you now tell me where did you go

I should run to you
I should run to you
I should run to you
I should run to you

I see the people rush home
I hear their laughter all around
A face in the middle of the crowd slowly but surely losing ground
All that I need is a smile that will last
It comes through to me through the walls of the past

I should run to you
I should run to you
I should run to you
I should run to you

I feel my memories are floating back
Falling like rain
I can’t control my feet
They’re doing steps to the door, I should run to you
But my feelings are to strong to hold back
Where are you now tell me where did you go

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there’s always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there’s vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don’t make no difference
escaping one last time
it’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

(Beverly Jo Scott)

Faire fingers drawing lines
Making simple designs up in the air
Hello, how are you – I’m five
And calling to someone pretending they’re there
To someone who’s never there

Hey

Why don’t you pick up the telephone
I just might be somebody you ought to know

Hey

Hide and seek is a baby’s game
You don’t want to know my name
I’m gonna tell it to you just the same

I’m ten years old and much to bold
I get that from you that’s what they say anyway
Fifteen’s drawings nearer and I see clearer
My face in the mirror
Who do I look like today

Hey

Why don’t you pick up the telephone
I just might be somebody you ought to know

Hey

Hide and seek is a baby’s game
You don’t want to know my name
I’m a gonna tell it to you just the same